Roller Coaster

Ho boy, this journey is not an easy ride.

This week has been difficult. Erik is gone, the kids are fighting, I'm trying to get my ducks in a row for Paris (have I mentioned that I'm going to Paris? Well, I am, next week. CAN. NOT. WAIT!), I am trying to keep my house clean, trying to exercise every day, and the list goes on. I'm sure everyone has these seasons; be it day, week, month, year, life.

First off, let me give a little background so you know where I'm coming from. I think with my life eating foods that are not good for *me* namely gluten and foods that are not good for *anyone*; artificial sweeteners, trans-fats (anything that is partially or totally hydrogenated, soybean oil, etc), high-fructose corn syrup and artificial flavors and colors, I have made my body sick. I now need to heal it. To heal it I need to eat a healthy balanced diet as well as take prescribed supplements.

So this week, I haven't been taking my supplements. I haven't been drinking my water, I haven't been eating all my food, and I haven't been working out like I should. I have been working out and what I have been eating has been mostly healthy but I see myself spiraling back to where I was. Can't happen! I can not go back to my old habits.

On the flip side, I hit my 15 lbs weightloss mark. That's a big deal for me. I have tried everything under the sun to lose weight and this is the only thing that has worked. Now it has worked twice, I'm not going to go back. I have also been able to not drink the caribou!

My roller coaster emotions are that I want to celebrate my successes but I know full well that if I get too cocky about it I will just revert back to my old way of life. I can't do that!

It is a week before I leave for Paris. I think I am going to try to commit to being "perfect" for a week. I can do anything for a week, right? Well, see. I will report back.